Tomahawk Chop!

Sunday some friends and I met up in Atlanta to watch the Braves play the diamond backs. Even though the Braves lost, it was really great to get to catch up with some of the ones that I haven't seen since we left school. My car was packed to the brim, and my driving skills definitely weren't their keenest, but we made it there in one piece. It started to get questionable whether or not we were going to make it there alive when we had a little visit paid by a homeless person at the Macdonald's we ate at in downtown Atlanta. We met Spencer and Ashlyn at the gate, got our tickets, and went inside. We had seats next to the Braves bullpin again (this is kind of our favorite seats). We ran into Blake and his parents, papa Parrott and mama Dee. I think I was more excited about seeing them again than anyone else. They mean the world to me, and I can't exactly put my finger on why. Amazingly enough we made it home safely after a few close scares.

I started out with plans for memorial day, but they kind of crashed and burned. So I spent that beautiful day in my bed. I still feel so lazy and worthless from laying in bed all day long. I caught up on my sleep; it's not like I was lacking in that department anyway. I could've been blogging; you know how much effort that takes? Maybe that will help you define how lazy I was being.

Today I ran all my errands and saw a few friends and old favorite teachers. I also thought about picking up a new book. It wouldn't be a bad idea.. or maybe I should finish the mini-story I'm writing. I think there is a such thing as mini stories?

Anyone want to come up with productive ways to spend my summer?

summer begins

I have decided to start blogging daily.. or at least aim to. Who knows how long this brilliant idea will last b/c my aim is about as bad as a blind armless man, and it will probably go the same for my blogging habits as well. I just figured since I had nothing better to do while I'm home for the summer I might as well be productive, eh?

I've been finished with school for about 3 weeks now. The good news is, I passed all my classes. Bad news, I miss school entirely TOO much. I'm enjoying being home. My parents are driving me up the wall; dad especially. I got hired for a job that I didn't take. I'm still working weekends for a job that is testing my limits. I wish I could find something else with the hours I'd like,but would still be enjoyable. I just haven't had any luck with that in anyway.
I've been trying to catch up with old friends. I haven't done it much. I went out with Clint and Robbie one night after work last week. It was extremely enjoyable because it was as if nothing has changed between us and time hadn't passed since that summer. They haven't changed a big, and I love that. I love how they treat me the absolute same even though that summer was so long ago and so much has gone on since then in our lives. The 3 of us went to this spot in the subdivision Robbie is helping to build that overlooks the lake. The moon was out so the water glistened just right. We talked, sang, and danced through the night. I couldn't have asked for anything else.
We've started up a Sunday Volleyball league.. well, kind of. Amy Jeffersno, Colt Harper, Cain Harper, Erick Dickman, and Cain's fiance Nikki played Sunday and had a complete blast. We're saying we're going to do it every Sunday for the rest of the summer, but we'll see how long that lasts.
I've been trying to keep up with friends from school. I really can't wait to move back. Amanda, Megan, and I are rooming together this year. Ashlyn is taking Emily's place, so you can assume we're going to be having a good time. I'm excited about moving back, but just a little sad b/c a lot of my friends from last year have finished their 2 years and are transferring elsewhere or they just aren't coming back in the fall. It makes me start to wonder what I'm going to be doing come next spring, and the more I think about it the less I know.

Everything is you

Eternal flame came on the radio
And I remember how you loved it so
Memories sneak on me, wherever I go

A car like you used to drive
Pulled beside me today at the light
Chances break and cry wherever I go

And you want me to be strong, any less just shows I'm weak
How'd ya turn so cold, where's the girl I used to know

Chorus:
And it's love and hate and all these emotions
I never thought that you'd be going
I'm just going through the motions
Where everything is you, everything is you

An inside joke comes to mind
We'd wear them out all the time
Memories sneak up on me wherever I go

And it seems you've disappeared, though you're not that far away
Please tell me it's not true, I didn't mean that much to you

And it's love and hate and all these emotions
I never thought that you'd be going
I'm just going through the motions
Where everything is you, everything is you

What did I do wrong, nothing I treated you like an angel
What did I do wrong, nothing I treated you like an angel
What did I do wrong, nothing I treated you like an angel
I treated you like an angel

And it's love and hate and all these emotions
I never thought that you'd be going
I'm just going through the motions
Where everything is you, everything is you

I treated you like an angel...

Take it to the limit one more time

2008. Time has really slipped past me this year, but a lot has changed, grown, and happened within it. I've noticed myself looking back and not actually reminiscing, but more like surveying the changes from then to now. Friends have been made and lost, bonds broken and severed, out with the old in with the new, broken hearts and promises, growing up and moving on are all just bits and pieces of the effects of the passage of time. For instance New years eve last year was wet and muggy, and my mind was being spent thinking about the changes and my hopes and fairytale like dreams that I was going to experience in 2007 (my plans were then to spend the rest of my life with the man of my dreams, fear of graduation.. ect ect). None of my visions came true except for those of high school graduation.
This year new years eve consisted of my realization that life has more to offer than what we believe it does. Everything isn't about lovers and friends. It's also about making yourself happy; seeing the world, doing something you never thought you'd do, meeting people, learning, putting yourself and loved ones as your first priority, self respect, achieving worthwhile dreams and not just those of fairy tales. I realized that that man of my dreams is incredibly worthless and spineless, and that graduation was one of the most significant, painless, and life changing things I've ever done.
I think the biggest change I have experienced this year though is the simple fact of maturing. Don't get me wrong, I'm still the same foolish & hardheaded girl I've always been, at least in my eyes, but I've really gotten a grasp on reality this year.. Parts of me have opened up and others have closed, but all in all I'm still the same Megan I've always been. I've become more independent. I've also learned that even though life throws us curve balls at time, I've learned you still have to swing as hard as you can so that it lessens your chances of missing the ball or more prophetically missing out on what life has to offer.
This year I plan to soak in every moment I can with my dad, it could very well be my last chance to. I plan to take things to the limit so that they will be worth remembering. I plan to continue surrounding myself with people that mean the world to me. I hope to continue creating myself into someone that I am proud to be. I really want to start seeing a lot of different places, traveling as much as i possibly can, along with continue to attend any concert I have to chance to. Opposed to last year I hoped that 2007 would hold love for me, this year I hope that 2008 will be filled with experiences and something that I can look back on with a smile and pride. I wish for these things more so than I do love or any other things people hope to find in the coming year. Quite frankly, I don't expect love. Although, if love comes with in the months to come, I'll accept it graciously and just ask it is worthwhile this time. I hope this time though, it would be "real'; something filled with passion, honesty, an intimate connection, and possibility.
Within the first 3 weeks things for 2008 have started unraveling for the best, and I hope things keep this way. It may only be a matter of time before this good streak comes to a screeching halt, but in the meantime I'm not letting the fear of striking out keep me from enjoying my time in the batter's box.